Sunday, February 19, 2012

Overwhelmed

How would I describe my lifestyle right now in one word? Overwhelmed. Between work stresses, and keeping up with my toddler and my house I feel this way every day.
I'm embarrased to say that I am not really even enjoying what will probably be my last pregnancy. I can't seem to focus on the fact that I am going to have another little punk and get excited about it. All I can do is think about how much work the first few months are and how am I going to manage everything?
Then there's the baby's room. Every time I walk past it my blood pressure rises and I think of everything I have left to do. With my OB threatening bed rest I realize I NEED to make some changes.
Thankfully last Sunday my mom came and got Jackson so Spiderman and I could sort through the piles of crap. Now the room looks more like this.
We can start painting and organizing. It will be a huge relief to have this done. Also, she got me the name of a woman who cleans houses. I'm going to call her this week. I think I'll have her come every other week to get things under control and then just once a month after that. $60 a month for a little piece of mind? Totally worth it.

I downloaded a new book to my Kindle called Bringing up Bebe. I've always been a bit of a Francophile and this book has some interesting child rearing tips. Like the French, I have always wanted to be calm, serene, and chic about life. (I am SO far from this in real life) They seem to enjoy themselves WAY more than Americans do. This book also points out that this calmness also extends to their parenting. Their children (along with the parents) seem calmer, better behaved, and happier for it. I could use some of this.

As far as the work stress goes? I don't know. I am still so desperate to prove myself that I take things way too personally. It's exhausting. And my department needs a lot of work and hand holding. Any suggestions on this front would be helpful.