Two Weeks

That's how long I have left until I have this baby. And I can hardly wait! I am SO done with being pregnant! I want to be able to bend over again. Jack knows exactly how to take advantage of my physical limitations. If he doesn't want me to pick him up he just lays flat on the floor knowing I can't reach him. Little booger. He also loves to take off running anytime we're outside so that I have to run right after him. He's ridiculously fast and I'm VERY pregnant!

I'm sure the time will fly by. We have Easter next weekend and all the prep there. I have a few more things to do to get his room ready, and I have SO much to finish at work before I go.
As far as work goes, I am very ready to be done there. Things have been so busy lately. I don't know if it's that things are annoying and stressful or if it's just that I'm annoyed and stressed to begin with. Either way, I could use the break. It will be nice to only have to worry about 2 children and not 50!

We still haven't decided on a name for sure yet. We have two that we really like. (I like one more than the other and of course Spiderman likes the other) We've decided to wait and see which one he looks like.

Hopefully with some time off work, I'll be able to post more. We also just bought a new laptop to replace the one that died around Thanksgiving. It should make it a little more convenient to post since it's more portable. If I want to post now I have to go downstairs to use the computer we have there. Most of my living space is upstairs (I have a bilevel) and we spend more time up there and most of Jack's toys are in the living room up there. I can keep an eye on busy little boys if I'm upstairs with him instead of downstairs blogging.

So...that's where I'm at.

Crabby Pants

I've been wanting to blog but I have been such a crabby Eeyore lately that I thought it probably better if I didn't. But then weeks passed and my mood never improved so here's a random post about what's been going on here.

• I'm tired. All. The. Time. Jack and I have the same bed time.
• I've been trying to slowly go though all the crap in my office/junkroom to make it into the new baby's room.
• My new mattress? It came, but only after drama from JCPenney about the delivery which resulted in me cancelling the order entirely and purchasing one from The Bedding Experts. Lesson? Don't buy anything from the JCPenney Homestore if you actually want it to be delivered to your house.
• Did I mention that I am tired? And pukey?
• We also had to put my cat, Tim to sleep. Tim and I were together since I was 18. He was my baby when I couldn't have babies. I didn't take it well.
• I have bags and bags of Halloween candy that I am not allowed to eat. Spiderman bought be decoy candy. It's running out....

So yeah, that was exactly the depressing post I was trying to avoid. But to be fair I DID warn you.

Please do me a favor? Leave me a comment telling me SOMETHING good.

I need it.

Three Days

That's how long it took me to come off my NYC high. The Workshop was WONDERFUL! There are no words to describe how life changing it was for me. I met some awe inspiring women who have caused me to rethink so many things about my life.

So where have I been?

I got back and hit the ground running. Since then I've been busy trying to implement some of the things I've learned. I am trying to change my outlook, declutter my house and life of all things unwanted, plan an educational symposium at work, plan Jack's baptism (finally), "play" more, exercise more, and generally be happy more.

We had Spiderman's birthday, Easter, and my sister's birthday. I helped my sister move into her new apartment and now my grandmother's in the hospital (and soon to be moving into assisted living).

I'm desperately trying to not let the "dementors" at my work poison my soul again. There are people there who are so miserable and hateful that they want to make my life miserable and see me fail. I will not let them.

Change is hard and takes time, but I think I have made some positive steps.

So what have YOU been up to?

Why Hello There.....

Gosh, it's been FOREVER since I've posted. So what's new with me?
Well, last week we had Snowmageddon here and got around 23 inches of snow. The blizzard was so bad that several of my coworkers were trapped at the hospital for over 72 hours. Managing the "code white" and getting relief for them took up most of last week.

Then Friday was my 33rd Birthday. I was so exhausted from the stress of that week that I just vegged out and fell asleep early. My stomach is still a nightmare so I didn't even have a birthday cake. It was truly tragic.

This shouldn't be an issue for much longer because my surgery is tomorrow! I'm pretty nervous because this will be the first time I've ever been intubated. It's kind of a case of knowing too much and it's freaking me out. I am, however, MORE than ready to eat what I want without getting deathly ill.

With all that has been going on lately I've been feeling frumpy and unattractive. I hadn't had my hair done since Jack was a month old and it was a hot mess. The greys were showing and the hair itself was dry with split ends (probably from lack of nutrition due to my new diet of jello and more jello). On Saturday I decided to treat myself for my birthday. One cut, color, and deep condition later and goodbye "mom ponytail".

What do you think?

Do you think they'll let me keep it?

This cold is lingering and I'm sick of it. I have to get over it soon because I found out I have gallstones and have to have my gallbladder removed. Like soon.

Since about a month after Jack was born I started having pain, vomiting, and diarrhea that has gotten progressively worse and more frequent. At first I thought it might be a great "diet", but the pain is kind of interfering with my life so I went to my doctor. They did an ultrasound and found the stones. Now I need to have it removed. At least it's done laproscopically. I did tell the doctor that if he found the flap of baby skin to be impeding him in any way I was totally willing to part with it. You know, to make things easier for him and all.

I am waiting for his office to call me back to schedule the surgery. I have to say I'm nervous. I've never been intubated before. I have pretty teeth and I'd like very much to keep them. I guess this is one instance where knowing too much can be a bad thing.

My mother is going to take some time off to help me with Jack since I won't be able to carry anything greater than 5 lbs for a week. I guess laying him on the floor and occasionally throwing puffs at him would probably be a bad idea so she's helping me.

Maybe during my downtime I'll be able to blog more.

Dancing with a Star

I have always loved to watch people dance. I love musicals, America's next dance crew, and music videos. Anything where people are dancing all choreographed and in sync mesmerizes me. Unfortunately, when it comes to dance I have no rhythm or coordination. I wish I did.
Especially after watching this video:


It makes me want to join in. Do you think Usher would come to my house and teach me to dance?

I'm A Bad Mother

Right now Jackson is sleeping in his swing. He does that a lot. I depend on that thing WAY too much. It's just that he loves it so and is so screamy when he's not in it. We've even moved it to our bedroom so that when he's up in the middle of the night I can put him in it and go back to bed.

Because people, I am tired.

How did I manage to get such a high maintenance kid? I mean, I'm not high maintenance or anything..... Little dude wants to be held like ALL.THE.TIME. And he's also starving. ALL.THE.TIME. My boobs can't keep up. Most of the time he just wants to use me as a very warm bodied pacifier. Spiderman doesn't see anything wrong with this. I think it's because he wishes he could too. We feed Jack and put him down at about 10pm. He's up anywhere from 1-3 to eat and then he's all wide eye'd like "hey what's on TV?" The other night we watched back-to-back Three's Company's at 3am. 3AM!! When did I give birth to a club kid?

Last weekend I very much needed a break. On saturday I left Jack for the first time for the afternoon. At noon I went to get my hair done and then went to the mall with a girlfriend while he stayed home with Dad. We only meant to be gone for a few hours but I ended up coming home at 6:30pm. I felt so guilty. Because I actually forgot I had a baby for a little while. When I got home it was like I forgot what he looked like. I felt so bad! Then on Sunday my mother came over and watched him while Spiderman and I went to dinner and a movie. We mostly talked about Jack and wondered what he was doing. It was so weird.

I don't even want to think about what it'll be like when I go back to work!

Yea, Another Random Post!

• I have finished 99% of my Thank You's from the shower. My wrist hurts.


• I spent the weekend chillin' at my mom's pool wearing my delightful maternity bathing suit. It's a paisly print halter-tarp.


• At the pool I was diligent about putting on sun screen as preggo's are more sun sensitive.


• Except that I am retarded and didn't want to get sunscreen in my hair and have a distinctive red line right at the hairline of sunburn.


• SOMEbody is getting very big. I think it has a lot to do with all the cake I've been eating.


• Our Pulmonary Function Lady is on vacation this week and I filled in for her today. I only had a few days training and have never done a test by myself before. I was completely terrified coming in this morning, but I survived. And I'm proud of myself for it.
• This season of True Blood is Awesome, but is anyone else a little weirded out that Forney is a vamp?
• I watched the trailer for the last Harry Potter movies and almost peed myself. All I could think of was who was going to watch the little guy so I can go see them!
• Here's the trailer:

Anyone want to volunteer to watch a rugrat in November?

Big Comfy Couch

This may look like a regular couch, but it's not.

It's magic.

It is soft microfiber and comfy and for the past month I cannot sit on it for more than an hour without falling asleep. It's something about this couch. I have another, leather one that does not have this effect. It's almost like someone sprinkled it with sleeping powder or drugs or something wonderful. Today I went swimming at my mother's house. When I got home I sat on the couch to read for a little bit. Within 15 minutes I took what felt like a really long blink. It was over an hour. The magic couch struck again.

I wonder if it will work on babies?

Random Crap

Yippee another random post!

• For some reason I am craving oranges. I eat one a day.
• I don't know how, but I've accumulated 4 more books to add to my list of things to read before Ninja Baby comes.
• I do plan on telling you all his name...just not till he's here.
• I had a really odd dream the other night that I was breast feeding my cats. It kinda freaked me out.
• The baby's room is finally painted and this weekend we're putting up the border. I'll post pics soon.
• N.B. and I went to the movies to see The Backup Plan. He did not like it. I can't tell if it's because it was loud, or he doesn't like J.Lo. Either way he kicked me the whole time.
• While standing in the ER the other day, I sneezed and peed my pants. I was mortified.
• Yesterday I was at Kohl's and saw the most annoying mom on the planet. In a weird, loud, sugary voice she repeated everything she said 3 times. Do you have to go poopy? Did you loose your cuppy? What do you see? X3 I wanted to smack her.
  
• I had a head cold a few weeks ago and couldn't take anything for it so I bought a Nehti pot. I creeped Spiderman out one night when I called him frantically to the bathroom to see the long string of snot dripping from my nose all the way down into the sink. It was cool.
• He did not think it was cool.
  
• He sent me this video soon after.

Sinus Rinse Addiction - watch more funny videos

Randomness

I haven't really had any one thing to blog about that would constitute an entire post so I saved them all up and now I've got a good random post.

• I finally took my car to be fixed. I needed new struts and it had gotten so bad that it sounded like my wheels were going to fall off every time I drove it. My friend's hubby did an awesome job, it runs like new.
• We have been having a "heat wave" this week with temps in the 40's and 50's. The snow has almost completely melted and I can actually see grass! Because of this, we've finally been able to take down our Christmas lights. Hillbilly's no more.
• This past weekend I felt the peanut move. It was both cool and creepy at the same time. It's not quite strong enough to feel on the outside yet, just on the inside to which Spiderman replied, "That's Bullshit!" I think he's feeling left out. I told him that since I have to squeeze this thing out of me, it's only fair.
• We've started cleaning out the baby's room which is currently our "junk" room. We have our next ultrasound on the 29th and should be able to tell what it is. After that I can get started on painting.
• All this nice weather has made me realize how dirty my house is and I feel the need to do some Spring Cleaning. Anyone want to help?
• At 4 months, I'm really starting to show now. I bought some maternity jeans from Old Navy and I may never wear real pants again. They are SO comfy.
• I'm embarrased to say that the other night, while watching the Oscars, I ate almost an entire bag of OkeyDokey cheese popcorn.
• I'm not sure, is it too soon to post a baby belly shot?

The Soundtrack of My Life

I'm probably like many of you when I say that my life has a soundtrack. Most of the time I have one continuously running in my head to accompany everything I do. There are certain songs that everytime I hear them I'm instantly reminded of certain moments in my life. I don't know why. But they're like home. I thought I'd share some of them with you.

Anything by the Doobie Brothers My mother had a major thing for Michael McDonald and used to tell me he was my real father.

The entire Thriller album When I was little we weren't allowed to touch the record player and I remember laying on the floor of the living room and shouting for my mother to come turn the record over.

Hello by Lional Ritchie It reminds me of staying up late to watch Friday Night Videos (before we got MTV)

Chicago's Will You Still Love Me This is the first song off the radio that I ever learned all the words to. I was SO proud of myself I made my cousin sit and listen to me sing it. The whole song. Looking back she probably thought I was a weirdo.

Rush Rush by Paula Abdul My girlfriend and I were completely obsessed with this song the summer it came out. It helps that Keanu Reeves was in the video.

Close to You by Maxie Priest I used to walk to school with my next door neighbor in Jr High. She was a year older than me and was always running late. I'd sit on the toilet in her bathroom and watch her curl and tease her bangs while she played this song. Every day.

Remember the Time by Michael Jackson In the basement of the before-mentioned girlfriend at my first boy/girl party I got my first kiss while this song played in the background.

Poison by Bel Biv Devo and Anything by Boys II Men Reminds me of every single High School Dance

In Your Eyes by Peter Gabriel This song reminds me of the time John Cusack stood outside my room with a boom box over his head...wait, that was a movie...nevermind.

Crash by Dave Matthews Band Makes me think of a certain party and a certain boy from college.

Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton When Spiderman and I had been dating for about 2 months we went to a wedding and this song was playing. He said that this would be our wedding song. At the time it kind of freaked me out, but later it WAS our wedding song.

So tell me, what's on your soundtrack?

Fresh and Clean

There is something about January that seems fresh.
I don't know if it's the start of a new year or the fact that everything gets covered in a thick sheet of white snow. Combined with the sub zero cold, it's like everything is being sterilized. December is always so stressful. The party and get-together planning. The cookie baking. The pressure to buy everyone you know a present and decorate and bake cookies. It gets to be too much.
And then after New Year's it all goes away. There is a long stretch before the next "big" holiday. I have nothing to do but chill.

And it's wonderful.

First of Many Random Posts

Another random post here. I just feel pretty scattered. I'm pretty sure with the preggo brain I'll have more of these kinds of posts coming.

• Have you all noticed my new blog bling? If you scroll down a bit you can see the little baby ticker. My mother forgets that it's not actually my baby and tries to see if it looks like her. I think it looks a little creepy. Like the Alien or something. I mean it has a tail and flippers! I'm sure it will eventually get all cute and stuff, but right now? Not so much.
• We have got to get a snow blower. Already this year, we've gotten over a foot of snow and Spiderman HATES to shovel. So on our porch and driveway is a foot of snow. It makes getting the paper interesting. Does anyone have any suggestions on a brand?
• I have recently decided that I do not like Kate Hudson. I don't know exactly why. It could be because I recently saw Bride Wars. (her character is VERY unlikable) It could be because she let Ryder grow his hair down to his ass before cutting it. It could also be because she has a snotty face and thinks she's awesome.
• If you have a chance, go see Sherlock Holmes. I very much enjoyed it. The chemistry between RDJ and Jude is great and it is pretty humorous.
• So far I've only had the energy to take down half of my Christmas tree. The bottom half is just chillin' in my living room. Like we're hillbillys or something. The kitties love it.

So yeah, that's all I've got.

Totally Random

Today I'm feeling kinda random and can't really pull it together to post about one thing so here's a hodge podge of what's on my mind:

• I spent a large portion of yesterday trying to remember the names of the Chippettes. All I could think of was Jeannette and Eleanor. I finally had to google it to come up with Brittany.
• I finally got motivated to purchase and wrap almost all of my Christmas presents. How awesome am I?
• I REEEAAAALLLLLLY want to take a nap right now.
• Just as suddenly as the kitties started fighting to the death they stopped. It makes me nervous. Like they're plotting something.
• While watching the Vampire Diaries last night I became very aware of how much Ian Sommerhalder looks like a young Rob Lowe.

Rob
Ian

Am I the only one who's noticed this?

So yeah, that's all I've got. Is anyone else finding it hard to focus this time of year?

I Saw This on a Hallmark Card

Why I Work ( a short story)

I like food.

The end.

I'm Boring

The most interesting things that have happened to me lately:

1. My father ended up in the ER with early stages of Congestive Heart Failure...But he's okay now.
2. I painted my hallway...finally.
3. I read the first book in the True Blood series. In one day. I'm now hooked.
4. I went out for dinner with my new friend last night. I forgot how much I miss female company!

That's all I've got. What's new with you?

My Brain is Feeling Random.

I have so many things floating around in my head so this is going to be a totally random post.

• I have a new friend. His name is Shaun. He came over today and fixed the drain of my kitchen sink that has been stopped up since THURSDAY! You really can't put a price on being able to wash your pots and pans and run your dishwasher. Oh wait! You can. It's $250.
• I know you all are wondering what I bought at Ikea a few weeks ago. I bought these: I purchased 4 of them to replace the dining chair that was broken at Spiderman's 30th Birthday party. Broken chair + drunk men = bonfire. In my driveway.
  I know
• Also on my vacation I went to Shipshewana. At the flea market there, I found this cute table for my entryway.

Don't the Amish make cute furniture? I'm debating painting it black to match my dining chairs.

• This past weekend my sister and mother and I had a garage sale. At my mothers because no one really ever wants to have one of those at their own house. It's a lot of clean up. Here are some of the highlights.
  

Notice my sister wrote "Good Deal" at the bottom of the sign. Thanks Abbie. We never would have figured out what a deal an entire set of pots and pans (with lids) was for $7.50 if you hadn't added that! A+ for your marketing skills.

My niece set up a lemonade stand because the day was stiflingly hot. Most of her patrons were my sister.

Yeah...... my mom apparently bought the two of us matching blouses. That we both sold.

This one was my favorite. Notice the tag: Bag of Knives?? My mother just threw some random knives in a bag and sold it. Go figure. I always wonder about the people who buy my old crap. And whoever buys this? We should probably be afraid of. But by having this garage sale I did find a place to get rid of some of my old books. So there's that.

• Apparently, according to a new study I will have a harder time recovering from a spinal injury because I don't like blue M&M's. I'm sorry. They're just wrong.

And Finally,

• In 4-6 weeks I will be able to leave the country at a moment's notice any time I want.

I know it was random, but I can't help it. My brain feels scattered today.

Hormonal Energy

It's official!
My last shift done.
I'm on VACATION!!!!! (can you tell I'm excited?)

Thanks for all your suggestions. I made an appointment for Wednesday for the facial. I'll let you know how it goes. It seems like I've had more migraines than usual with the onset of summer and I think the face, neck and head massage that comes with the facial will feel SOOOOO good. Plus with all the hormones I've been taking (and now NOT taking) lately, my skin could use a little help.

The last few days I've been trying to really clean my house good so that I don't feel like I have to do it while I'm on vacation. I want to just relax. It helps that I've been hormonal. I always get really clean-y around my time of the month. Of course I clean all the time, but once a month I get crazy about cleaning. I mean, those are the times when I clean out my cabinets, closets, and refrigerator. I clean my windows and vacuum my furniture. The clutter really bothers me. Everything seems really dirty. I usually get on my hands and knees and scrub all the floors because they just can't get clean enough. I feel this compulsion to organize.
Spiderman can always tell when it's around that time because he'll come home and I'll have alphabetized the spices or some strange shit like that.
I know that pregnant women get the "nesting" thing because of their hormones. I wonder if it's related. I get all this restless energy. I've always been this way.

Is it just me, or do you get to scrubbin' around your time of the month too?

Nothing Interesting

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have actually attempted to start organizing the office. I bought a filing cabinet and sorted through some of the piles of junk. I didn't get very far, but it's something. I spent the entire holiday weekend working 12 hour shifts from hell...not by choice....and that brings us to today. I spent the entire day lounging by my mother's pool reading fluff. It was awesome.

That's all I've got today because all the fun in the sun has given me a headache.