There IS Hope....

Today Spiderman and I had an appointment with a fertility specialist. I don't really want to share too much right now, but I'm hopeful.

We'll just have to see what happens.

Deeply Flawed

Do you ever feel like you've become the worst possible version of yourself?
The meanest, cattiest, rudest, bossiest, most selfish version?
Sometimes I stop and listen to myself or see how I'm behaving and I instantly regret it. I'm embarrassed and spend days repeatedly beating myself up about it.
I guess the ideal thing would be to stop myself before I do and say these things right? But most of the time when I'm like this, I don't even realize it. I'm just grumpy, or not feeling well or just feeling like a huge bitch. Like this weekend. I had a migraine for several days and was hormonal. Several times I caught myself being just awful.
I wish I could say that I was perfect and never lost my temper and never said or thought a mean thing in my life...a saint if you will. I don't really foresee that happening anytime soon.
I have less of a problem accepting the faults of others than I do my own. I wonder what that says about me? The only thing I can do, I guess, is try better tomorrow because "tomorrow is another day with no mistakes in it....yet." (from Anne of Green Gables)

This Shouldn't Be So Stressful...

But it is. I'm making a sweater for knitting class and I'm hugely behind. I originally took the class to help me relax, but it's having the opposite effect. My house is a mess because all my spare time is spent trying to knit furiously.

I actually shouldn't even be blogging.

I'll blog more when I've caught up!

Happy Valentine's Day!

I'd Like to Thank The Acadamy

I was given the Honest Scrap award by Mimi today. The object is to tell 10 scraps of information about yourself and pass the award along.

1. I am afraid of large dogs. I don't know why.
2. While I am primarily right handed, I am left hand dominate in several activities.
3. My favorite color is blue.
4. I took knitting classes to help me relax and it's only stressing me out more.
5. I had a massage last Friday that left bruises all over my body. I'm delicate like a peach apparently.
6. I have a black thumb but keep trying to grow things anyway.
7. I have a short attention span and get distracted easily.
8. I was raised Catholic, but am not sure 100% what I believe.
9. I have a quick temper.
10. One of my favorite things is to have a hot bath and then climb into a bed made with fresh sheets.

That was fun. I now pass this award on to 3 bloggy friends.

Melanie

Jen

The Coconut Diaries

I'm curious to see what your list is.

They Just Let Anyone Have Kids Don't They?

Did anyone else witness child abuse on television last night? I'm referring to the interview with the mother of the octuplets. There were SO many things about that interview that bothered/angered me that I feel that I have to make a list.

1. 14 children? And no job?? And no partner???
2. As someone in the medical field I feel that the fertility Dr. should be held accountable. I mean, it's irresponsible to let her have that many kids that she cannot take care of.
3. But wait, she'll be able to take care of them once she receives her degree....in psychology. Good luck with that one, lady.
4. She seemed a little obsessive about having children so she could have people to love her. Maybe you should have to take a psych test before you can have that many children. It's just a thought.
5. People are NOT supposed to have litters of babies. It's not healthy or safe for the babies to be in there with 7 others. 8 babies all vying for limited resources. They will all grow up to have problems. Respiratory, developmental, cerebral palsy...etc. As a parent if you can possibly avoid the risk of having your child born with issues shouldn't you do it? It's selfish and irresponsible.
6. She didn't seem to give a crap about what any of the children wanted, or what was best for them, just what SHE wanted. When they interviewed her other children, they didn't seem thrilled to have 8 new brothers and sisters to compete with for mommy's attention. Kids aren't stupid you know. They seemed to have a better grip on reality than the mom did.
7. She said she had invitro because of her advanced age of 25. 25?? I'm ancient then.
8. This crazy chick has 14 kids and I can't manage to be blessed with one? Does this seem fair?
9. And finally....she looked like she had her lips done. It was annoying, because if she did shouldn't she be saving that money for all those damn kids?

Did any of you see the interview and if so, what did you think?

Weather Wonders

Last Tuesday: 8 degrees and snowing
Today: 65 degrees and beautiful.
Go Figure.

It's too gorgeous out to be inside on the computer so TTFN!